You don't realize the pain until...

How do you feel when you know all the sweet memories was just a bed of lies......and a bad dream?

You wake up, face it bravely and walked away....and thought everything will be alright...smile, joke as usual....and thought it's not painful at all.....but...when realized it, the pain is so unbreathable....and it gets worst each day like a diabetic patient...

How to endure with this kind of pain? When will the pain go away?

There's a song from S.H.E singing , " Rainy day, pls go away..." Can I change it to " Pain pain, pls go away?"

What did I do to deserve such pain? Can somebody tell me? What did I do wrong to deserve all these....

Can you find me an eraser?

Do you know where can I find an eraser?

People always says time will heal and make you forget, but why the more you chose to forget, the more you remember things about it? Is it a process that everyone has to go through before completely forgetting it?

It's so difficult...especially when you cannot even show the pain and sorrow....and you have to smile when you're crying inside..

If you know where to find an eraser...please be kind to tell me.....

Saying Goodbye...

I was never good at saying goodbye...because that is the hardest thing to do. Although I had to and already said goodbye, it was easier said than done. Sigh...How I wish I could be as brave as I've said it..but inside, I'm struggling with the goodbye...how pathetic...

No matter what, the goodbye is for good...

And many people said, "Time will make you forget and heal...."

So, I just got to hang on ...and wait.

Wait for the time to come....

New Year proposal for Fy

Just got off a video call with one of my best friend at MSN and she showed me her proposal ring! So sweet... proposal on New Year, first day of 2008. Wow. And..the best thing was she finally got the first bouquet from her bf. And I can't wait to spread the news around to my other best friends! It's something worth remembered...especially when it comes to people who are close to me. Congratulations, Fy! Wish you 'xing fu' always.

A everlasting love to begin new life.....

15 more days to go ......and will be airing the songs that I'm trying to compile for my lovely cousin's wedding at Renaissance and later on at Shangri-la. Seriously, listening to the love songs really can make my heart melt too. Haha, I know some of my friends would say I'm exagerrating, as though it's my own wedding; feeling more excited than the couples to be. But it's so natural...when you listened to the songs ...you'll imagine how wonderful and happy the couple will be....and feel so touched. It's just like a blessing from God to create more love in this world.... How can anybody resist love? It's just like fairytale turns to reality!! I can't resist!!

It's really fun....listening to music.....I just can't live without music...just like the couples can't live without each other! I love listening to music to sleep, while driving, washing car, shopping, strolling in the park, jogging..etc. I can't imagine the life without music. Really...haha...and I feel like I'm like a part time wedding planner now! Ok ok...I know somebody's gonna comment on this. Beh tahan with me, for sure. But I love this! Ah, maybe I can venture into this line when I officially leave my current job next year?

Lol.

The snow begins

This is my first blog and I actually don't really know what to write about. How did I come to create this blog then, you must be asking? Oh well...it was a nice and cute friend of mine who recommended me to view her blogs and then to create one myself. I told her I don't know what to write; especially when I read hers. She told me that she don't either and she just 'pakai hantam'. Just express what she felt and went through. Share what she wanna share. And yeah, it's really fun to read her blogs although some stories she already told me at work. :P

I hope that I'll be able to write more here. Can it be something like an open diary?

Let's see if this snow will continue....